Tell Tale Signs
Where next?
It’s blowing a holy gale outside and in the early morning gloom I watch birds being scuffed like confetti over giant ash trees across the road. I say a prayer for them – the trees I mean. They’re old and I know this beating will challenge their inner might.
“Be brave…& support each other”, I mutter, as I sip my Chai.
Where next, is on my mind right now. It’s not just because the year is ending, I feel sure there’s a deeper rumbling. I sense something new is lurking, in my blind spot maybe? It wants my attention, but I can’t see it yet.
Yesterday, in my journal I wrote, ‘I know there’s something slowly boiling within me. Change is coming’. And as I sit with this unformed shape, I know it already has energy and must not be ignored. Even to write, ‘it must not be ignored’, evokes a giddy-rush within.
I remembered that David Hockney said, “I’m greedy for an exciting life”. He then clarified that excitement came in the form of raindrops falling on puddles and the simple joys of nature. How wonderful to boldly say that you’re ‘greedy’ for the wonderland of life. Was he saying, ‘I want to be open to so much more?’
Sensing a transition in the air I’m asking myself what is it that will help me to discover what the tell tale signs will be. How will they reveal themselves and how do I even know what I’m looking for? And, just to be clear, I don’t believe that there’s only one right path. But I’m greedy to know what lies ahead and what possibilities await.
The clues for the next steps will actually be with me right now, hidden in the lining of my everyday life. My challenge is to spot those clues and the tender hints that are trying to signpost and call to my soul.
This morning I’ve decided on 3 things that I’m going to do, as I become watchful for these signs and I’m hoping they can bring me some clarity for the coming days.
Before the year is out, I’m planning on looking through my art journals that I’ve kept every day this year, and pick out the few pieces that truly resonate with me. I’m going to use my emotional barometer to see which pieces of art really make my soul respond viscerally. Then take some time to ask myself, ‘What’s going on here?’ And to get curious about what gives me joy.
I will ask myself, ‘What don’t I need any more?’ and ‘How can I simplify my life?’ What makes me feel heavy?’ and ‘What’s not working?’
I am going to welcome in my day-dreaming and look to see what desires are waiting there, refusing to leave. What do I still long for? What never goes away? Where do I feel an itch, a pull, or constantly entertain reoccurring thoughts? By giving these desires and longings validation, it gives them a voice and real worth and it’s a way of honouring my heart’s compass.
So, let’s stay strong, let’s be brave and support each other more and more as we move across our own personal thresholds in 2024.
Thank you everyone for your love and support.
I’m stronger because of YOU
Shalom x